25 Random Things About Me

1.  I would do absolutely anything for my boyfriend and baby.

2.  I really REALLY really want my engagement ring!

3.  I am kinda a control freak and hate not being able to know what is happening in the future.

4.  I want to be done with school ASAP!

5.  I have secretly been planning my wedding in my head since Chan and I had the "future" talk.

6.  I am secretly addicted to the Real Housewives of Orange County.

7.  My baby brother is an amazing guy.

8.  Shorthorn cattle are my favorite spare time!

9.  When Chan and I finally have real money, I want to have Shorthorns, Simmis, Chis, and Maines.

10.  I want to get a tattoo with my son's initials on the back of my neck.

11.  I am going to be an aunt for the first time in September and I am so excited!!!

12. Chan has an interview on Monday and I am hoping with everything that he gets it.

13.  I have no idea where I want to go to grad school.

14,  My car is my worst enemy.

15.  I want to live in a world where I am not afraid of what the future holds for my child.

16.  I cry a lot lately.

17.  My dog has bad anal glands.

18.  My future in-laws are very excepting!

19.  I can't wait until Valentine's Day!

20.  If I had the choice between a high paying job with little stability or one with a lower income and stability, I would choose stability every time!

21.  The Real World is way too over dramatic!

22.  People who serve this country deserve the respect of everyone!

23.  I am downloading new music as we speak.

24.  My favorite song is My Best Friend by Tim McGraw.

25.  I want to go to Greece so badly it isn't funny!

O NO!

So I got called at around 7:45 PM Thursday night by the lady who is in charge of the residential program that I work for.  One of the guys that I used to take care of had to be admitted to the hospital and because of his needs, he needed to have staff stay with him at the hospital overnight.  So...lucky me, I am currently pulling an overnight (1 AM-8 AM)!  I am going on only 3 1/2 hours of sleep too.  Right now, I am doing pretty okay with energy, but I have a feeling in another couple of hours I am going to really feel it.

Tonight is Kyle's Homecoming game.  So........after class gets out at 1:50 PM, I am headed to pick up my friend Allison's apt. key because Chan, Troy, Randie, and I will be staying there so we can get a little extra sleep before working at the Simmi sale tomorrow.  After that, pick Troy up from the babysitter, head home and hopefully get a little sleep, Kyle's game at 7, and then back into Macomb.  What a crazy day!

A life of my own

Things are finally looking up on this side of the mostly Miller family! Chan is working this week for a cattle sale (Wednesday-Saturday) and then I just got hired onto another dept. within the company that I currently work for. On Saturday, Randie and I are working at clerking the same sale that Chan is working.

On top of that, Chan finally got a car, he had a phone interview on Monday, and then got called by Dot for an interview on Monday!!! Hopefully he will get hired on at DOT. Maybe then we can finally move into a place of our own and have the life that I've been wanting finally start.

I also have been searching for a new car since I just paid mine off. If all goes as planned, I think I may be purchasing a Mazda Protege. I am so excited to finally have a car that won't freak me out so much!

What else.........OH!!! I can finally announce that I am going to be an AUNT in SEPTEMBER!!! I am so excited. I really hope that it is a girl even though they want it to be a boy. As long as they have a girl at some point I will be happy...that means I can spoil her rotten and never have to have another baby! I love Troy to death but lil' Miller is enough for us!

Troy Carter is 4 months old today! It doesn't seem possible. I am anxious to get to his doctor's appt. on the 4th and start him on rice cereal! He is too precious and is the light of my life!

Oh yea....Valentine's Day is coming up soon! I hope that I get something special this year. I didn't get anything for Christmas so I really hope that Chan does something to make it a special day for me....however, I'm not holding my breath!

Well for now.................be safe!

...........hoping that everything is fine................hoping that I'm wrong..........feeling a lil bit like an excuse............thinking that this is not what was wanted.............praying that my gut is so wrong

Bipolar Lifestyle!

Why is it that guys have absolutely no clue? They always say that women are so hard to understand what they want, but I swear I could come right out and say, "Hey, I would love for you to do anything that shows that you love me. Put a little thought into; it doesn't have to be anything big. It could just be flowers, but surprise me." and he wouldn't get it.

I was a little frustrated with Chan because this was our first Christmas together under one roof and he didn't even get me anything...not even a card. I know that we have been tight with funds right now, but he could have at least gotten me a card....right? However; I told him that he could have a pass for this as long as he did something really good for me for Valentine's Day. The sad thing is I know that it won't happen. I don't want a big show or anything...I would just like for at least a little affection. I know that he loves me, but just because he has me, he doesn't have to stop showing it.

For once in my life I would love to be surprised by him, but I know him way to well. Hell...he will probably just slip an engagement ring on my finger and not even bother asking anymore at this point!

GRRRR!

On the other end of the spectrum....my grant money went through today and I am dropping my check in the mail to pay off my car! The piece of shit 2000 Tracker is finally actually all mine! I will have the title in approximately 2 weeks. I will have all of my bills paid off by tomorrow! Yea! maybe now I will buy a new cell phone and a Bluetooth ear piece. I doubt it because something else will for sure come up, but it is nice to wish!

Early Morning Ramblings

As I begin my newest addiction, I am sure, I thought that I would let anyone who is reading this know a little bit about me.

On September 28, 2008, I was blessed with the birth of my first child, Troy Carter Miller. His story is one that is not the simplest, but he is truly loved and that is all that matters. Troy's father (Chan) and I have had a back and forth relationship for approximately eight years now. We have had our rough spots, but we are happy together now and have plans for a marriage once I am finished with school. When I found out that I was pregnant, Chan and I weren't actually together, but as time went by and a crazy ex-girlfriend finally became an ex for good, we were able to move on and become each others' support and strength. I can truly say that no matter how badly the day has been, when I come home to my family...things get better.

Right now we are currently living with my family on our 100+ year old farm. Although this is a very stressful situation at times, it is helping us get on our feet. We are anxiously waiting for the time to come when we are able to move out.

Chan moved down here in October after finishing his time at a previous job. He is still searching for a new job besides everything that needs to be done on the farm. He had some interviews and dropped off applications yesterday and I am holding my breath waiting to hear something back!

Right now, we are working on updating some things around the farm. However, with the current -20 degree wind chills we are having here in Illinois, it has been very difficult to get a lot done. As soon as the weather allows the ground to soften up, Chan will be back working on building new pens and pastures.

Besides each of us having our separate cattle, we were given the opportunity to purchase 4 bred cows, 2 open heifers, and two open cows on credit from a man who has been like a second grandfather to me. The open cattle are currently on our farm and the bred cows are still on his farm until we get the fencing all re-built. So for now we are bouncing between two farms to do chores. We are also starting calving here at DWI Shorthorns. January 8th brought our first heifer calf of the year and boy-o-boy does she look nice. We have another cow in the barn currently waiting to calf and another one getting ready by the middle of February.

Chan and my farm operation will eventually be MCC once we are settled and on our own, but until then it is just the herd prefix.

What else....well due to the early nature of this blog, it becomes apparent that I was awakened by my wonderful son. He has just started teething this week and this will be the reason that we never have another child. We will just have to settle with nieces and nephews from here on out!

School starts back on the 20th and I have mixed feelings about returning. On the bright side, it is my second to last semester as an undergrad....however there are four more semesters of grad school until I am able to have a real career and making real money! I can't wait for that day to come.

Well....the sleep deprivation is starting to kick in and I am tired of listening to the lady on GemTV describe beautiful rings! It is time to go back to sleep...the sofa is calling my name.

Until next time.....stay warm and safe!